March,17,2010 爷爷回天家了。

Still don't know how am i supposed to react to grandpa's death. I've never thought of grandpa or grandma or any one close to me would one day be gone from this earth. It's not terrifying,but a weird feeling. how can someone that i know for my entire life disappear just like that? i can't believe this,but i have to accept my loss.
I can still recall the familiar voice calling my nickname...
I can still recall his smile, how he laughs...
I can still recall the way he walks,the back i would always run to...
I can still recall how he teaches me words,poems,and writing Chinese calligraphy...
I can still recall the night I left china, he stood by the moving train,waving goodbye at me...
I can still recall how he reads me literature and explain to me the stories with his patience...
I can still recall his passion towards walking, he loves to walk to far places...
I can still recall his happiness to see me...he never gets tired of me...
everything is like yesterday,so familiar,unforgettable.
but today,he's gone.
my Abba has taken him home.
grandma said he left in peace,very peaceful.


Abba,if this is a present for my 21st birthday,i accept it and i thank you. thank you for being my everything. thank you for taking care of my family. thank you for your provision. thank you for giving me such a perfect family, i can't be more satisfied. thank you for taking grandpa home,you must miss him alot. you are my faithful father no matter what. everyday, i can't be more excited to find out your plan for me. please send Holy Spirit and all angels to serve and love on my family,fill them with peace. release the spirit of wisdom and revelation so they will understand your love for them. thank you,father.


爷爷，我会想你的。相信你现在一定很开心，很健康。等我去天堂时我一定会继续教你用电脑的，这次绝对不要生你的气了。爷爷，我知道你在笑，可我却哭的好惨。你和我说过的话，讲的道理我都记得，也请你在天上为我们祷告。希望你和耶稣可以好好相处。我真的会想你的。。。。我们天堂见。 爱你的孙女，乔。